I honestly hate myself for still feeling this way at 23. Whenever I’m out, I always feel like the ugliest girl in the room, and it literally makes me feel completely worthless. It sucks watching how nicely everyone treats beautiful women. Nobody ever says anything mean to them. Guys are always looking out for them, and other girls always have their back. They get this pass in life that I’ve never had. No one has ever helped or protected me except my parents.I’ve learned to just rely on myself, because my parents won’t be around forever and nobody else gives a damn about me. Maybe this is how it should be.
wow, OK - that’s a huge effort!
I can see it’s worth it. I’m not sure why I’m apathetic about this, but I feel genuinely intimidated that it won’t work or don’t want to feel dumb about it. How silly…
Looking silly is often the price of admission for improvement. Therapy and its homework often feels dumb. And this stuff takes time; but even if it doesn’t help, putting in this effort, accepting looking silly, and doing it anyways tells your brain that you’re worth doing such things for, and it can help you try the next thing more fully too. That said, they do work.
It does feel silly but at the end of the day it was one of the best things I ever for myself in my life. A true act of self love and self care.